Well...

Hello blog! I haven't been on here in AGES!
And once again... my life has COMPLETELY changed!
First things first... SCHOOL.

Lately I have been struggling with school SO much. I hate going. I hate doing my homework. I hate sitting in class. I hate studying. I just hate everything to do with it. I have been so confused because I still don't know what I want to go into. I feel like I am wasting my time and my money. I started trying to figure out what classes to take next semester... and the thought kept coming to my mind, "what if I don't go at all?" But I kept pushing it aside, I mean I went through all of this during the summer! But the thought wouldn't go away! So I finally told my mom that I was struggling and didn't know what to do. I expected her to tell me that I had to go and act the same as she had during the summer but to my surprise she said simply said that maybe a break wasn't a bad idea. So I kinda started thinking about that a lot. I started praying about it and guess what!!! I am not going to school next semester!!! :) As soon as I decided I just had this amazing feeling! I know it is what I need to do! I am seriously sooo happy about it!

Next! I got a new job!!! Yay! :)
Here is the story. Ciera got to be on Good Things Utah so I got to go with her. We went to lunch after and while we were sitting there we over heard this guy talking about how his work needs to hire a new receptionist... so I went up and talked to the guy and asked how to apply. :) An emailed resume, phone interview, and 2 in person interviews later I have a new job! It is at Western States Calibrations. It is amazing and it made my decision to not go to school make more sense!

And I have a new nephew!
He was born today and is SOOO adorable! :) He was 8 lbs 10 oz. and 19 inches long. He has a ton of hair and is absolutely perfect!!

Well that is pretty much all that is going on. :) I'll write more later!

Lite Brite!

This weekend was FANTASTIC!!!
I went to Price on Saturday after work! It was Lite Brite a neon, glow in the dark, paint fight!
Ash, Emilee and I decided to wear something matching.....This is what we chose! Pretenders aka nerd glasses!They also convinced me to wear the dress that I got at DI for Lite Brite last year.
We took lots of fun pictures!
And were covered in paint by the end of the night!

Also, conference was AMAZING! I loved being able to listen to the Prophet and hear the words of the Lord. :)

Yes... I am 20.

Right now I really should be studying for 4 tests... but blogging sounds SO much better!
On Monday I turned 20... and it was an awesome day! I had SO many people call, text or write on my facebook wall. It was so nice to see how many great friends I have! I went with my mom and Ciera shopping and to dinner. It was a really nice day... but at the same time I couldn't help but look back at my life and realize how different my life is than I had ever planned. Two years ago I was a senior in high school. I thought I knew exactly what was going to happen. I had a plan and I thought it was perfect. Little did I know how wrong I was! I would never have guessed that I would be going to Weber and that for the first time in my life I wouldn't have a plan. I am still as clueless about what I want to do as I was when school started. I am just taking it day by day and relying on the Lord.

Lately I have been looking for another job. I love working at Sorenson and I don't want to quit but I feel like I am slightly lazy. I have SO much free time that I don't even know what to do with myself. I applied at a daycare and I got offered a job! I was extremely stoked... until I realized some of the stipulations. I have to sign a contract to work there for an entire year and it only starts out paying minimum wage. I am unsure of whether to take the job. I know that I would LOVE working there but I also know that it is possible that I would find another job that would pay me better that I would love as well. So right now I am just trying to decide what to do there.

I have also been going to school. And of course having fun! :)
I went with Ciera and Stewart to the State Fair. It was a blast!
Hayden LOVES riding horses!
He had so much fun!

Every day I am reminded of how blessed I am to have a sister that is my best friend (and did I mention how talented she is?! She made me a skirt for my birthday, she completely made up the pattern and everything! It is SO cute, pics to come in my next update). Recently I had an experience that just made me feel so grateful to have her in my life. I have always been told that friends come and go but family is forever. This past week I realized how true that is! It is crazy how quickly things can change and over such ridiculous things. It is during these times that your true friends stick by your side. I have seen this over and over again and every time I have a trail I look around and my family is always there waiting to help me. I am so blessed!
Well it is getting late and I still need to study! So thanks for reading! :)

Foam Party!

Last night Ashlie and I went to the Foam Dance Party at Weber State.
When we first got there people were standing around and it was kinda boring.
I was a little disappointed because I had been soo stoked to go.
We were also trying to decide if we really wanted to go into the foam pit or not.
We were worried about being cold... but after a few minutes decided that we just had to experience it, so we went in! And oh my gosh!!!! It was SO much fun! We met some new friends and just played in what was pretty much just like a giant bathtub! So much fun and we weren't even cold (until we got out). If you ever have the opportunity to play in a foam pit I highly suggest you take advantage of it.
After playing in the pit we were pretty much freezing and hungry. So we went to Denny's to get some food and hot chocolate. So we are sitting there eating and these boys walk past our table and I see one of them drop something, the he stops and picks it up and looks at Ashlie and says, "hey I think you dropped your dollar." And Ashlie looks at him and says, "uh no, I don't think I did." He says, "maybe you should have" and hands her the dollar and then walks out.
So we looked at the dollar, and that guy left Ashlie his number!!! (Pretty brave, right?!)
So today Ashlie decided to call him, just to see what he was like. And guess what.... she is going on a date with him this Saturday!!! Crazy how things happen, right?!

Today was fantastic! I had a fun day with my family. We went out to dinner at Chili's and decided to celebrate my birthday again!

Changes.

I have learned recently that life is constantly changing!
These past few weeks have been very interesting.
I started school at Weber, which is a HUGE change. My classes are all pretty good. But it is just so different than CEU.
Also, this past Sunday I was told that I can no longer go to the ward I have been going to. :( They are sending all of us to wards closer to home. This is definitely a downer. But I have decided to just have a good attitude. I learned a lot while I was going to that ward and really felt the Spirit. I now have the opportunity to meet many new friends and have a lot of new experiences.
I have been working a lot, and going to school but I have also been having a lot of fun!
On Saturday I went to work and then came home to a party! My family had a big BYU game party! We had homemade rootbeer, caramel apples and navajo tacos. I didn't really watch much of the game. But I still had a lot of fun!I got to hang out with Ciera and my mom and all the babies.They are growing so fast I can't even believe it!For Labor Day we decided to just play all day! We went and test drove cars. It was a blast! :) We also went to Texas Road House. We decided to celebrate my birthday a little...Yes I was embarrassed.
And... just kind of a random thought.
I just thought I would write a little about my sister. :)I have so many random memories with her. She has always been there for me and taken care of me. I am so grateful for her and the relationship I have with her.
I love you Ciera! :) Thank you for everything you do for me. :)

My Decision.

I have been trying to decide what I want to do with school... but I haven't let that stop me from enjoying my summer! :) This has been a really fun summer! I have been able to go out with my friends a lot. It has been nice to not have to stress and worry about school.
Steph highlighted my hair.Before:

After:And Jess got married so we went to her reception! :) She looked gorgeous! It is hard to believe that the first of our group of friends just got married!!! :)And this cute little guy turned 2!I can't even believe it! I love him so much! He is so smart and so good. He is definitely a blessing in my life. Highlights of the week....
On Monday I went to Lagoon with Steph! It was a BLAST!
Yesterday Steph and I were hanging out with some of our friends at their house when we realized we were hungry. It was 11pm and we wanted Pizza so we decided to go to Winco and buy some. We ended up ditching the boys and made them think we had abandoned them at the grocery store. It was totally immature but so funny!

And end result....
I am now an official WildCat. I decided that I wont know what I want to be unless I experience different things. So as of right now I am going into Communications because I love communications and the emphasis is family and interpersonal relations. I think that it seems like a pretty good major but we will see as time goes on.
So I have to say goodbye to my fun and stress free summer... and hello to school. I start on Monday! I am a little excited though because I was able to make it so that I go to school on Monday, Wednesday and Friday and I work on Tuesday and Thursdays and Saturdays.
I guess we will see how it goes! Thanks for the advice it helped! :)

Ugh... Life.

Beware, the following is me babbling about random thoughts that I have had recently....

Lately I have been struggling a lot. I haven't really told anyone because I don't really like to tell people when I'm having a hard time... I would rather just be happy and fun all the time.
It is nothing serious or anything, I just don't really know what I want to do with my life. I just feel so unsure of EVERYTHING. In the Spring I felt so certain that I needed to go to Weber. I knew that I needed to go home and be with my family. I am the kind of person that loves to plan everything. Spontaneous is fun and I like that too... but when it comes to my life I have to plan it out. I measure the pro's and con's of everything and try to be logical. When I was in Jr. High I wanted to be a lawyer. I thought that would be awesome but when I was a sophomore in High School I looked into it more and realized that there were a lot of things about being a lawyer that were not exactly ideal for me. I loved the idea of public speaking and getting to "argue" my point. But I realized that I would get too attached to the situations and this just wouldn't work for me. So then I was back at square one... trying to decide what I wanted to be "when I grew up..." and then my mom suggested a News Reporter.
I remembered back when I was a little girl and my cousin Kelsi and I would sit in my basement and make up news stories. I always thought that would be the coolest job ever! I decided that was the perfect career for me and started preparing for that... but now it makes me a little nervous. I have finished my associates degree and I am actually supposed to make a decision. I have to decide what I want to major in... and if I decide I don't like it and change my major then I waste a lot of time and money. 2 things I really hate wasting...
Lately I have been trying to think of all my options. I even went and talked to an adviser at Weber but I always end up even more confused. I feel so unsure of what to do right now. I don't know what I want my major to be... I don't know what I want to be when I grow up... I have no clue where to go from here.
I have been praying like crazy, reading my patriarchal blessing, reading my scriptures... and I'm still lost. I guess growing up is difficult. I feel like I am being torn into a pieces. Part of me says to take a semester off, find another job and just work and save money, and really try to decide what I want to do and then go back to school in the Spring. Another part of me says to just keep the same plan I've had for a long time and go into broadcast journalism. Another part of me says to go into family relations or something with kids. All of these choices have benefits and downfalls... and I just can't figure out what the best choice is for me... and even more stressful is that I am running out of time to decide!
HOWEVER, that being said, I just have to say, I have some of the best friends ever. Tonight I went and played Volleyball (well I actually didn't play, I'm not athletic like that, I watched... and tossed around a football a little.) with a bunch of people from my new ward (which I love, by the way.). I have met a lot of friends there. Steph and I were just sitting there watching everyone play and she asked me about school... and I told her exactly how I had been feeling. It was SO nice to actually voice my concerns. I am so lucky that we are best friends, most girls can't say that they have been best friends since 5th grade, but we can. We have had our fall outs and fights but we have pulled through it. I have no clue what I would do with out her. She was great and listened to me, then some of our new friends came and talked to me as well and told me that they went through the same thing.
I am also very blessed because I have a great family. I know that they are there for me all the time and are willing to help me anytime I need it.
Well, I think that this post is long enough and I have rambled a ton but thanks for reading if you have any advice, I'd love it! :)

Gratitude.

I have always heard stories about people that have terrible, awful trials and how people come together to help them. I loved hearing the stories but that was all they were, stories. They were not my reality.
I am sure most people know about the struggles that my family has had the last 2 years. But if not I will just give a little overview. My sister, Ciera is married to Stewart and they have 2 amazing little boys, Hayden (almost 2) and Keagan (just over 4 months). Stewart has heart problems and has had 5 heart surgeries in the past 2 years. Obviously this has been very hard on the entire family but mostly on Ciera. Stewart has been unable to work because he passes out 20-40 times a day. This has made Ciera become the sole provider and nurturer of their family. Recently Stewart's doctor told them that he really can't do anymore for him and told them they need to go to Minnesota to the Mayo Clinic.
When Ciera first told me I thought it sounded impossible. They obviously can't afford that and I had no clue how they were going to be able to raise all that money. I tried to be positive for her but logically it just didn't seem probable. But I have been proved wrong.
I know that the Lord gives us trials and he also gives us a way to get through them. Sometimes that way is through other people. Ciera and Stewart are very blessed to have friends that love them. As soon as some of their neighbors found out about Ciera and Stewart's latest goal they decided to make it a reality and went right to work. They set up a dinner and auction. They got local places to donate items, gift cards, and services. They also got the radio and newspaper to help advertise it.
The event took place last night. I cannot even express how blown away I was. I love my sister very much. It has been so hard for me to watch her go through these trials. I know I haven't been able to help her much. I try to watch her kids and be there for her but I wish I could do more. Last night I was holding her baby and just looked around the room. I saw tables full of items that people had donated. I saw tables full of people, some that I knew, some that I didn't but all of them were there to help my sister and her family. All of them were willing to sacrifice their time and money just for my sister's family.
I talked to the girls that organized it and I thanked them for helping my sister so much. They responded by thanking me! Can you believe that?! I was so impressed with how Christ-like they were. Everyone came had the same attitude as those girls. They were all so willing to help and do what they could.Not only was it a beneficial night but it was also a very fun night! I was able to spend a lot of time with Hayden and Keagan. I love them both so it was fun to be able to play with them. I also bought a lot of GREAT stuff at the auction! :)
I have always wanted a Christus Statue and last night I was able to get one and have all the money go to my sister! :)
I was also able to get a super cute bag, it is supposed to be a diaper bag, so I'll just keep it in storage until that time comes.
I also got a cute little home decoration for my future house.

Today was testimony meeting and I wanted to get up and share my experience so badly but for the first time in my life, I was speechless! I had no clue how to express how I felt and how grateful I was. Last night was such an eye opener for me. I learned that we really do have a Father in Heaven that loves us. That we are given trials so that we can learn and that he has sent people here to bless our lives. I know that the Church is true and that if we listen to the promptings of the Holy Ghost we will be blessed. I love my family so much and I am so grateful that if we live righteously we can be together forever.
If anyone wants to know more about Ciera and Stewart you can check out their blog

www.sendstewarttomayoclinic.blogspot.com

Camping!

This weekend was pretty fun!
My family (mom, dad and Ty) left to go camping on Wednesday. My original plan was to meet up with them after work on Thursday. But my plans changed when I had another offer and ended up having to work on Friday morning. So on Friday I got off work at 10:30am and made the short drive to Coalville. The entire way there I thought my car was driving strange so when I arrived my dad checked it out and one back tire was a little flat so he put more air in it for me.
Then I just spent time with my family. It was my mom's birthday so we celebrated that.Ciera made her this cake, my mom is the assistant on the bus for the special needs kids. :)
When it got a little later I got nervous about my car. I had planned to stay over night but had to leave early in the morning for work and I didn't want to have to worry about my car because the tire was still losing air. So my brother and sister in law (Cameron and Heather) saved the day! They offered to go home that night as well and let me drive their car to work AND get my car fixed while I was at work! So this was what we did!! :)
When I got home Travis came to see me! Which was awesome! Saturday I went to work, came home and hung out with Katie. :) Then Ciera and Stewart came over with their boys. Then Travis came over again. :)
On Sunday Steph and I went camping after church! It was great! Steph and I haven't had a sleepover in YEARS and it was so great to be able to spend time with her! :) We made smores and roasted starbursts! :)
We helped make the fire.I am so glad that we have been friends for so long! It was a great weekend! :)

Recent Developments!

This summer has been awesome!! I have had so much fun just hanging out and relaxing. Of course I am still working but it has been nice to have some downtime.
I have been able to hang out with a lot of my friends!!!This is Jenn. She was my best friend in Jr. High then she moved to Cali and I haven't seen her since! But she came to Utah to visit some family so we were able to go to lunch!! It was awesome to see her! :)Steph and I have been able to hang out a lot again. :)And I've hung out with Katie TONS! :)I've played with my nephews too!And I had a cast for 3 weeks. I had/have a ganglion cyst on my right wrist. It was hurting so bad that I couldn't even move my wrist so my mom took me to the doctor and he sucked all the fluids out of it and put a cast on me in hopes that it would prevent it from coming back. It didn't work because it didn't even go away! Oh well, the cast was waterproof and pink so it was manageable!
That is just an update on what has been going on.

Lately I have been so happy! I have just been taking things one day at a time and been meeting new people and making new friends. I have loved it! I was so happy just dating around and doing what I wanted.... and then I met a guy....He is so cute, sweet, spiritual, smart, hardworking and he treats me well. He is such a great guy. The only problem is he is moving to Arizona for Medical School in a week. I have no clue what is going to happen when that time comes. But I guess that is life and I will continue to just take it a day at a time and see where life takes me! :)

In Vegas!

Okay, so once again I have been meaning to update this for a while and I just haven't gotten around to it.
When we first arrived in Vegas we went to the Mall, it was a lot like the Gateway! :) We got a picture with the DQ Ice Cream Guy (I love Dairy Queen!)Emilee got some lemonade.And we got free ice cream!!! YUM!!!
So, while Em and I were in Vegas we went to the Strip! It was disgusting and dirty but we had fun!! There were a lot of impersonators that we got our picture taken with. :)Em and I tried on SUPER expensive glasses.This picture cracks me up, the guy told Em that she could just stay with him so she busted up laughing and couldn't stop. These guys were soo much fun!!Michael Jackson!

Please excuse how fat I look in this picture... and the ridiculous look on my face.
Napoleon Dynamite!! And the reason we went to the Strip... not as cool as I remember it...
And yes... Emilee did consider leaving the house like this for about... 2.158 seconds... :)This was our ride home... check out the size of those cups!! They didn't have a smaller size that was plastic!!
And that was our trip to VEGAS!! :)